BeCOz OF YoU

Because Of You- Kelly Clarkson

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in

Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you

sigh... i dunno lah... this whole emo thing is juz sooo tiring. im juz too tired to think or argue anymore. is this working out? well i'm trying my best. really i am. but i guess sometimes, my best is just not good enough. not in your eyes. and i'm tired. i'm tired of trying to be the best that i can be and yet still feel all the heartache. yes, I HATE HER. the very sound of her name juz irks the living hell out of me. so, i should call her she-who-shall-not-be-named. hmm.. sounds like a harry potter character, but it sounds better to my ears. u can say watever u wanna say la, i still feel that way. ya ya ya ya ya.. u can say it's me. well.. it was HER in the 1st place. u know.. people should juz stay away fr what is not theirs. coz feeling sorry after dat juz dun work. it's like driving a car over u on purpose, after the injured person haf to go thru operation and all, u say, oh, i'm sorry. like... hello... do already den say sorry ah. i say, think before u do it ok. coz it hurts. but oh well, what goes ard comes ard.

so is it me or it is me? different perspective. depends on which viewpoint u r looking at. ok, so much of pointing fingers... so... here goes...

i'm sorry for screaming,

i'm sorry for being the way i am,

im sorry for being incomplete,

im sorry for being imperfect,

im sorry for not being able understanding completely,

im sorry for not being there all the time,

im sorry for being annoying,

im sorry for being so difficult,

im sorry for not being able to chill,

im sorry for being such an inconvenience,

im sorry for being so bothersome in your life,

i guess, im juz sorry for being me.

so perhaps, this me should juz go and not bother you any longer. den perhaps, life would be better for YOU.