SonGs FoR Me

once, my frens and i talked about the different songs that wld depict our personalities. Songs like Lady Gaga, Joy to the world came up. For me? They couldn't put a finger on it but it has to be one that starts slow... then there'll be a part that's really upbeat to show the side of me that says "Don't mess around with me". Didn't get to the ending part but i'm hoping it'll end on a gentler note. They got the middle part right for sure. I may be tolerant, but hey, i'm no push over and of coz, I'm not a saint, so don't push it. there's a little red button that spells out "B.I.T.C.H.". i highly suggest that button should be avoided. you don't want that little monster to creep out and cause mayhem. Come to think about it, it's like inuyasha turning into a real demon when his life is being threatened and he's away from his sword . and when that happens, it's very difficult to stop him. real hard. while he is trying to overcome that weakness and not turn into a beast, well it ain't an easy task i would say. it takes a lot of effort and time. hey i cant help it, i'm hooked to inuyasha tho it's getting a little boring along the way.

so hmm... i wonder y I see this happening over and over again. is it suppose to be "normal". cos if it is, it's bloody warped. for those in the party i'm in, i don't blame them for doing what they did. i finally understood. now don't blame it on genetic factors. stop trying to be pitiful and blame it on circumstances. that's juz cowardice if i may say. take control and shun away from being the victim of crcumstances. we have more control than we think we have. frankly, i dunno if this might seem obvious, i'm a person who holds and highly regards the principles i have in life. so, I don't know whether or not i should make it an exception. hmm...

i'm saying it now, and i'm still going to say it in years to come. I HATE HER. "Hate" is probably a strong word. but i do. she should just stay away, from me, from you, from us. the further, the better. now and forever. as i've said, i'm not a saint. i'm still trying to get it out of my head. i don't know how they do it, i'm still trying. probably it just takes time. that's for us to find out.